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Today is the last day of 2008 and it is also my father's birthday.. Happy birthday dad..
So many things happen within this year. Things that actually changed my life...
2008..
The year ...
...we moved into a new place..
...my brother moved back in with us
...my mom remarried
...i started living without parents
...i lost trust in friendship
...i learnt the true meaning of friendship
...i became more independent
...Fie took another step further in life
...i found photography
...i met him
...become his
...i got the most wonderful gift ever'
...i received an award at work
...made many wonderful new friends
...had a wonderful nad refreshing year
Goodbye Past.. Welcome present.. Hello future..
Loves and adores...
Labels: leave me aloneI'm feeling super weak right now. Exhausted. Drained out.
I need a get away for the moment. I need another holiday. ARGH!
STAY AWAY FROM ME! I DUN WANNA ENTERTAIN ANYONE RITE NOW! ESP U
Labels: N i flewWhen you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands and watch you rise
Chorus
Spread you wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be, so spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
Verse 2
I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly (butterfly)
Bridge
I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye (stand and say goodbye)
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun (fly to the sun)
If you should return to me (I will know you're mine)
We truly were meant to be (spread your wings and fly)
So spread your wings and fly Butterfly (my butterfly)
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be (you and I)
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly So flutter through the sky Butterfly Fly Spread your wings and fly Butterfly.
Labels: Ingin ku capai tapi bila ku hulur tidak tersampai...Disturbed...Humiliated...Disconsolate...Lugubrious...
Desolate...
Sorry... I neglected you..
Your feelings.. Your needs.. You...
Can someone just be a little generous to me? Can someone just forgive me? Can someone just spare me?
Am I that spiteful? Wad did i do wrong?
Labels: My D60.. eheh...2009 is coming.. Do i have resolutions? Well... I dun realli make new year resolutions cause if i do, the only resolution tat i would make is to complete the previous year resolutions. hahaha..
Its almost time for me to say goodbye 2008. Many things happened in that year. N loads of changes to my life. I made one of the biggest decisions in my life. That is to say goodbye to my past, welcome the present and definitely change my future. Its a new life and a new begining.
Because of him, I'm where i am right now. Because of him, i found my passion. Because of him, I found a path for my future. Because of him, I see myself doing something new for life. Because of him, I found my new love, my new passion. Because of him, I found photography. He brought new meaning to my life. He brought oppotunities and open up doors of life.
The reason i smile...
The reason i live...
The reason i laugh..
The reason i breath..
.... i enjoy every moment in life...
.... i know the meaning of love...
.... butterflies in the stomach...
.... my heart skips a beat...
N u're mine...
Labels: I will tryI always have difficulties with words.
I cant seem to find the right words to say to someone without planning my speech.
Yes! I plan wadever i want to say.. May not be detailed planning but a rough run through my small mind will do..
There's many things i want to say to you but when i picked up the phone and dialled ur numbers, my mind went blank and my lips went numb. All i could say was "Are you ok? U fine?". Wow! That is sure comforting ayu! ARGH! So i will say my words here. Hope this helps.
Semua yang berkalu ader hikmah nyer walaupun ia pahit untuk menerima kenyataan
Setiap yang diberi kehidupan akan pulang ke Illahi. Satu kenyataan yang kadang kala pahit untuk kita menerima.
Tiada aper yang kita boleh lakukan, hanya berdoa kepada maha kuasa, Ya Allah, agar roh Allahyarham nya dicucuri rahmat and diberkatiNya. Ternyata Allah lebih menyayangi nya.
Insya'Allah, ayu akan berdoa untuk keluarga dan awak agar tabah dan kuat menempuhi dugaan ini.
I know and believe that you are a strong person. One impression of u that I believe would be everlasting for me. Someone who stands for wad he believes and hardly falls. Even if you falls, you will never let anyone see that. You put a smile even if there tears at the back of your eye. You put a smile even your heart have been shattered into pieces. I admire you for that. Therefore i believe you can make it through the rain. I'll be here as much as i can to help you through. As a friend, as an upcoming best friend, i try to be there for you.
Labels: *Empty*Miss u
Labels: Dying..I'm down with fever and my trip to genting starts tonight.. HOW??!!
At work now with a heavy head.. Migraine and fever.. BAD COMBINATION!
Still haven done the printing yet.. DEAD! How am i suppose to get it done??
Unpacked bag.. Not ready for genting.. Not ready for tonight nor tomolo.. Not ready for anything..
Labels: I love you... No goodbyes.. Just i'll see you soon..Eremophobia - the fear of loneliness and being oneself...
I wished i have that strength..
I wanted to overcome my phobia...
By trying to be alone..
By having the mindset that there is noone for me to call nor rely and depend on for companion other than myself..
The keyword is I tried...
I failed.. I broke down. I ended up calling everyone except the one...
But i'm standing back on my feet... Never shall i fall for long. Never shall i give up..
Its a bumpy ride on a broken road with no certainty of the final destination. But I will keep trying. Cause i promised.. N i know someday i will find my happiness and the place where i belong..
Take care of urself. You are stronger than you think u are. I know you and i know that you can make it through. Believe in yourself and you'll be fine. I've been there for you as much as i could for the past 14 years. N tat number is still counting. I promised you, with God's will, I'll be there for you whenever you need me.
They will never felt obligated to spend time with you if you were to tell them cause they are your friends. They want to spend time with you. Give them a chance to say what they want to say. Cause true meaningful words would not be said until something happen to that special person in their life.
Its a new life journey for you. Take it as a stepping stone. Take it as a life adventure and experience something new. I would not say its time for you to grow up cause you, in my eyes have grown into a fine man, a great fren.. But its time for you to step ahead in life. Time to learn something new. I cant be there for you when you leave, I'm sorry but my prayers for your well being will always be with you. My heart will feel for u. I will always reach out a helping hand if you are in need of one. I love you my dear fren. Be strong and you will make it thru. Always know that I will always be there for you. :)
P.S. I heard they bath naked together.. *wags eyebrows* ehehehe
Labels: OnlyoneI have bruises all over my body. OK lar.. more to my legs only.. The fall onto my bum was OUCH!! I have blue blacks on my LEG!!!!!! BOTH OF THEM!! Can u imagine??!! But it was all fun and worthwhile. Laughed and enjoyed every single moment of it.. Thanks.. ;)
I was laughing my ass off and the 3D glasses was superb. It realli make the visual look alive!! U guys should try watching a 3D movie. ENJOYABLE. *Hearts*
I dun noe wad to say to you and i dun knoe wad to reply to ur msges. I'm scared to hurt you and at the same time I'm scared of consequences. There are just too many things abt me, u dun noe. I'm nt the person u think i am. I'm mean and selfish.. I'm self centered... Better off... Congratualtions to you! I'm really happy for u.. N no worries i'm not going back.. heeess.. I'm happy with where i am right now. Loved and appreciated.. Maybe be taking a step ahead. U'll never know.. Just wait and c..hahaha
Labels: Seandainya...Ku tak bisa mencintamuKar’na ku tak ingin kau terlukaNamun kau matahari hidup di bumiSemakin ku tak bisa menepikanmu
Seandainya ku dapat memutar waktuKu ingin kau yang menjadi kekasihkuTak terasa begitu berat hatikuTuk melangkah darimu lebih jauh lagi
Namun kau matahari hidup di bumiSemakin ku tak bisa melepasmu
