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Labels: itsoneofthereasonileft...Why? Why? Why must it now be ur turn asking me intruding questions? And at such a timing... U pushed my button there. U really did.. So sorry if i came off too rude cause i find that u are invading my privacy. Its something that i demand respect upon. My space and my privacy. Why cant u just understand it? I told u all that u need to know. Dun ask again cause it will cause u to lose me once more.
Change of heart by Jodi Picoult...Heart warmingSuperb, many-stranded and grimly topicalIntelligent..Just stunning...
Labels: TwodifferentpersonHad a tiff yesterday. I was so mad and irritated by his constant questioning and constant bugging over something i said NO to.. tat i became rude and just shoved him off.. Before that i was already mad and furious towards him so i purposely got myself on his nerves. So all that leads to a blow up. To him ar.. For me i just kept quiet.
Played rocket with him the day before. His flew high but mine, blew up like fireworks! hahahah It was fun man! Laughter.. Smiles and joy. It was pure fun.
Labels: ithasgreenandblueyes...On last saturday, went to marsiling blok 3 to do some charity work. Helped to clean, paint and distribute hampers to some of the houses. It was fun and a very meaningful project. I had two roles.
I was the photographer. Used a D40 to take some wonderful shots. N now i'm totally hooked. I've always been wanting to get a DSLR but then no motivation or drive to push me for it. Since i laid my hands on that D40, i've decided to get myself one. Planning to get myself a D60. Something simple to start me off with then maybe i shall aim further for D200. But first, i have to learn the techniques and the basics in taking photos.
I dun want to be like those typical teenagers who owes a DSLR just for the sake of trend but not knowing how to maximise the usage of the DSLR. Its not as easy as just point and shoot. I want to go pro. So i've decided to take up some short courses on photography. So first, i'm getting myself a camera... Read up everything i can on it.. Sign up for courses... Maybe, this could be my sideline work. You know, doing freelance photography and get paid for it. Kewl huh.. A profession as a photograher. Then maybe once i get all that done, i'll quit dancing.. hahah ;)
Sorry peeps, I bought grey baju melayu instead of black.. But it is still in the shade of black rite.. hahahahah.. I want to be one that stands out..
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Labels: itwasabeautifulnight...It was a beautiful success.. I have to thank many people that helped me out in this mini project.. ;)
So here is the list of people to thank...
1) Mahesh - For being the tester of the day
2) Riduan - For being my co-chef
3) Hafidz - For drooling over the food
4) Aishah - For letting me use the homec room
5) Rajes - For not locking me up...haha
6) Mr Dheepan - For the moral support
7) Kak Kalsom - For giving me ideas and being understanding
8) Hock Ann - For the sudden appearance that made me nervous.. (haha)
9) Mdm Thavy - For letting me have the keys
10) Khairul - For meeting me there and transporting me to the place and for providing me the stuff.. ;) cause of me, u had a late buka.. sowie
11) Cab driver - For driving so slow but in the end i reach my destination
12) Tracy - For giving me the permission when Aisyah is not around
N for everyone that have been giving me moral and physical support. I'm blessed to have such frens.. :)
Today, he sent me to work. He drove me here. It have been awhile since i saw him. It felt as though its the first time we meet. He was nervous. How i noe? Cause he was mumbling. He does that alot when he is nervous.. hehe.. I find that cute.. N he talks and talks.. More like mumble and mumble non stop.. ehehehe.. Its been sometime since i last saw him. I forgot how good looking he is till just now. He really is....... sweeett....
Labels: Its a huntChicken soup..
Baked Salmon With Alfredo's Sauce...
Seafood Spaghetti in Alfredo's Sauce...
Brownies...
Mango with ice cream..
:)
Labels: Will you meet up with me?I can hear the distance in your voice. i can hear the coldness u showing towards. i can hear the waryness you had for me. You actually picked up my call. Is that a good thing or bad?
U've moved on or u have forgiven me? Or is it both? I called to asked you out but those words just cant seem to come out. I dun dare i must say..
Today is full of exams. Practical exam in the first part of the day and then there is the boring invigilation for the sec three NA science test. BORING!! Just sit there and look at how "motivated" the students are to pass the test. They would either gracefully put the paper aside and lay their smart intelligent head on the table or they would keep askin me politely when can they leave.. Do they think i have nothing better to do than to sit there in the class with them. Well actualli i dun.. hahahahahhahaah
Today will be meetin an old fren. It have been some time since we last met. It would be fun, reminicing old times. Meeting up with old frens seem to be the only activity that i look forward to this month. Just sit together and break fast while talking abt the past, present and future. cant wait for later.
Labels: It was flirting..Everyone is subject to their own feelings. Its just the matter of showing off that emotions or keeping it inside you. As people know, i'm the type of person that can hardly contain her emotions. So here i am feeling all jealous when i should nt be..
He has the right to contact whoever he wants. Its you who make the decision to leave. N so he has to meet new people to help him move on and help to heal his broken heart. Did that what you wished for? The best for him. If that's the best then you should learn to embrace it and be glad for him as there is someone else there for him...
Sorry, i'm not that strong. I cant help but feel jealous. I cant imagine you giving your love to someone else. I cant stand the idea of you embracing another woman in ur arms. I cant bear the idea of you giving all your love onced you gave me to another person. Selfish uh me.. I noe.. I am.. well.. But all i'm gonna do is to wish you all the best....
Cooked mee goreng yesterday and according to my wonderful and trustworthy tasters, it was superbly nice.. :D SUCCESS!! Another success.. It was chicken cooked in tomato the day before and mee goreng yesterday. So far all of my cooking are successful.. :D More dishes to come....
My heart didnt skip a beat. I didnt jump for joy. I was swept off my feet. Why didnt i? I just dun noe wad to say. I was speechless, for the wrong reason. I'm starting the cycle again. My whole life is a cycle. Turning round and round in circles.. Its neverending... I hate it!Still stuck in the past..
Entangled in a web of memoriesNot even trying to free myself..
Labels: Used..Just wad the hell are trying to do to me here.. N just what do u want from me?? U gave me sleepless nights which ended up me having bad headaches everyday, then u just leave me out in the cold all by myself. THANKS eh..
Wad do u mean to me? U asked me...
WAD DO I MEAN TO U?? Cause i realli dun noe. The path that you brought me to leads me to nowhere.. N when i'm lost, you left me behind, leading your own way out.Its all over.. Even though i said its wad i want. But i cant stand this pain in my heart...U changed ur password.. Another goodbye from you i guess..
Labels: U mean i look like a model??...I called but my lips went dumb...
It have tiring lately. Fasting and all. I slept for four hours at work yesterday. Hahaha. N guess wad! I lost three kilos! Wooohhooo!! I love looking at myself in the mirror nowadays. Within six days, i lose three kilos. hahah!! How did i do it?? BY FASTING PEOPLE! N obviously cutting down on my food intake during break fast and morning sahur. A big cut down. N i dun munch any more. N i wanna maintain my body this way even after rayer. It wil hard but i'm determine that i can do it! Confidence mau lebih.. hahahak!Why no ring from u?
Labels: Thank you for the conversation..Thanks for listening to my boring stories.. U understood and u made me realise why I was feeling the way I am.. I appreciate your time and effort in listening.. U make a great fren.. Thanks dear...
It was beautiful.. It was heart warming... It actualli make me smile to myself.. U have a beautiful voice. I'm not kidding. N thanks for wanting to share with me your gift, ur talent. I'm touched and i want more!! Remember the promise.. :D So yar.. hahahakk.."Don't be too hard on yourself dear. Things happen for a reason. You have to learn to forgive yourself before anyone else can forgive you."I'll keep that in mind. :)"I wanna see that smile of yours more often."I'm touched by your concern, my fren...Kini kau pergi dari hidupku... Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau...
Labels: SeandainyaI lied too much.. Too many times.. Till i cant even differentiate the truth and the lies anymore. Till everything turns grey..My truth is my lie.. My Lie is my truthI tried to set things right but i got things worst. When it was about to get better, I stupidly open my big mouth and i'm back to square one, where i was... Why cant i just keep things to myself.. just suffer on my own. I deserve it anyway. Why must i say out my feelings.. Why am i so vulnerable to my own feelings.. Why am i regretting all of my actions.. ku tak bisa mencintamukarna ku tak ingin kau terlukanamun kau matahari hidup di bumisemakin ku tak bisa menepikanmu
seandainya ku dapat memutar waktuku ingin kau yg menjadi kekasihkutak terasa begitu berat hatikutuk melangkah darimu lebih jauh lagi
namun kau matahari hidup di bumisemakin ku tak bisa melepasmu
Labels: Which way should i go...One step forward and two steps back...As i stood, looking into your room window, nobody except God knows how desperate i was just to see you. Just to see your figure would lift my whole spirit up. I dun need to see your face. I dun have to c u, just your shadow made me smile. Tears kept rolling, i dun noe y.. My heart aches and i dun know the reason y... Stayed there the whole night.. Waiting...You were so near but yet so far...Never felt so used before like you made me feel. Who do think i am? I'm not a bridge nor a highway that connects or linked you and your destination. Find another route. Why are you so insensitive of my feelings? The way you show ur concerns hurt me more. Do you know that? I'll let you move on.. But never will i... I made the mistake and i will never forgive myself for it. Take care. U'll always be in my heart..
Labels: Pathetic life i have...Welcome to my new blog...
I've stopped blogging for awhile. Well, actually not really. Been blogging but its been private. So after long, here is my public blog.
Just feel the need to have a place to say out my grumbles, my worries and my happiness since i've been feeling lonely lately. So i tell myself, ok u need a blog. hahahha.. Sounds pathetic rite. I know. But its just me. Right now, i think i'm one of the most pathetic person ever lived in this world...
"Too engrossed over what I dun have until i lose all the things that i already had. So, in the end, I'm left with nothing..."
